THE SHIT HAS HIT THE FAN

and its causing too many problems

Rain, rain, FUCK OFF!!!

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!

I hate the weather today.

Ahhhhhhh

It's been chucking it down all day! Walking to uni this morning, I realised my water-tight boots have holes in them somewhere, cause my feet were all damp. Then I went into Brighton after my lecture to do Christmas shopping, even though it was raining. I thought I'd be fine! WRONG!!

I'd been in Brighton 10 minutes, when a car drove into a puddle too fast and I got completely drenched! I trudged round the shops, soaking, wet feet, and cold, and decided to go home cause I really wasn't in the mood to shop. On the way to the bus, my brolly blew inside out, and i got even wetter trying to fix it. Then I got splashed by yet another idiot in his car. God, sometimes I hate car drivers!

The bus was horrible - cause everyone was damp so it just stank of damp people, and i had to stand cause there were no seats and as people got on the bus, they splashed me with their wet brollies. Then I had to climb up the hill to my house, with my brolly trying to go inside out and my shopping bags trying to split. The only thing that got me up that hill was the thought of having a nice warm bath.

No chance. One of my housemates is in the shower, and I have to sit here, waiting for him to get out. Who says boys take less time than girls?
So Helen's not very happy at the moment, and yep, I'm looking out my window and the rain has stopped. Bloody typical.

Post bath - MMMMMM i feel sooo much better! Ahh the wonders of a good bath. I'm lovely and toasty warm, and I'm not grumpy anymore! I'm going to cuddle up on the sofa and watch Gilmore girls or a dvd and just chill tonight. Tomorrow - another essay to write! WOO!

Get LOST

www.lost.eu/7a16c

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

So yeah.

Frustration is setting in. Im trying to write this essay, that I used to be able to do without even really thinking about, and now i just can't do it. I have a block. And it needs to be in this week. So i should really just stop messing around on the internet and just do it. Yes, Helen, just go do it.

As my mum says, "Procrastination is my middle name"

I do believe in Christmas, I do, I do!

Well, my brother was made redundant on Friday because of something called the credit crunch. A couple of weeks ago, my sister-in-law was also made redundant. Their employers couldn't afford to keep them on, and as they were the last ones to be employed, they were the first ones out the door.

They bought their house only last year, and was the reason why they couldn't come to Jersey for my 18th, because they had mortgage payments and couldn't afford it. They were hopefully supposed to be coming to Jersey for Christmas, so we could have a proper family Christmas, as my sister's coming over and it'll be my niece's first Christmas. Doesn't really look like that's gonna happen, unless there's some sort of Christmas miracle.

The realistic, bah-humbug part of me thinks that there's no such thing as Christmas miracles and my brother and sister-in-law wont be joining us for Christmas.

However, the other part of me - the one that's grown up with Disney happy endings and too many happy Christmas stories - is daring me to believe that it can be done. I'm feeling so Christmassy! I have annoying Christmas songs (especially Freddie's) going round and round my head, I want to start decorating the house, even though its still November!

So, for possibly the only time EVER, I'm hoping, nay, praying for a Christmas miracle, because, well, it's Christmas! And everyone deserves a miracle at Christmas.

Wind was blowing, time stood still

Something about this song always makes me feel incredibly happy. Maybe its the fact that it's the first song I remember hearing, or maybe its just such a good song to sing along to, belting it out. Or maybe it just reminds me of sitting on Glastonbury Tor as the sun set, feeling completely and utterly at ease with the world.

I heard it today for the first time in a long time, and just made me feel all happy.

Solsbury Hill - Peter Gabriel

Climbing up on Solsbury Hill

I could see the city light

Wind was blowing, time stood still

Eagle flew out of the night

He was something to observe

Came in close, I heard a voice

Standing stretching every nerve

Had to listen had no choice

I did not believe the information

(I) just had to trust imagination

My heart going boom boom boom

"Son," he said "Grab your things,

I've come to take you home."

To keep in silence I resigned

My friends would think I was a nut

Turning water into wine

Open doors would soon be shut

So I went from day to day

Tho' my life was in a rut

"Till I thought of what I'd say

Which connection I should cut

I was feeling part of the scenery

I walked right out of the machinery

My heart going boom boom boom

"Hey" he said "Grab your things

I've come to take you home."

(Back home.)

When illusion spin her net

I'm never where I want to be

And liberty she pirouette

When I think that I am free

Watched by empty silhouettes

Who close their eyes but still can see

No one taught them etiquette

I will show another me

Today I don't need a replacement

I'll tell them what the smile on my face meant

My heart going boom boom boom

"Hey" I said "You can keep my things,

they've come to take me home."

The Fairy Princesses

I've just been looking through some old photos and I've found 2 that will cheer you up today! Enjoy!!!

Who makes the better fairy princess, I wonder?? :)

I'm feeling

CABIN FEVER

In just one month

I was sitting on my roof (i can climb out of my window onto the roof of the rooms on the ground floor and sit there), looking at the stars (through the clouds) and the full moon, listening to an appropriate song, when I suddenly realised what the date was.

13 November

I will be back in Jersey in exactly a month. I leave Brighton on the 13 December. 30 days and I'll be leaving my student home to return to my own bed, to see my family, and more importantly, my friends.

I don't know what to feel about going home in 30 days.

Disbelief - I can't believe how quickly the last 7 weeks have gone. I've almost completed 1/3 of my first year. That's scary!!

Excitement - I can't wait to see my friends again, and catch up, and have a proper, insane get together. I havn't yet shown my housemates the true, insane me, so I've got some insanity that I need to release! Who better than on my friends! ha ha

Dread - (a) I hate Christmas so I never look forward to this part of the year, and (b) living under my parents again is going to be soooo weird after surviving on my own for so long. Having to abide by my parents rules, being constantly asked about work/assignments etc, not being able to come in at whatever time i want and make as much noise as i want, not being able to cook for myself whenever I feel like it and eat whatever i want without disapproving looks....etc.

Relief - Finally I can get some Mummy cooking, and hopefully some of my washing done, especially the clothes with stains on them. Proper drying facilities instead of just my radiator.

Excitement (again) - because my sister, my brother-in-law and my niece are coming for Christmas so I can't wait to see them!!

Annoyance - because I will have to work during the holidays so I can afford to feed myself next term, and that means i'll have less time to relax, spend time with friends, sister, niece etc.

So yeah, I don't know if I'm looking forward to going back or not, but I know seeing my friends and niece will make everything else better. Its just going to be very very odd not living in my own house, making my own decisions and only answering to myself. So I'll be seeing you in 30 days....

Sometimes, I

Sometimes, I wish
I could fly,
Not like a bird
But on the wings
Of love, high in the sky.

Sometimes, I wish
I could be the ruler
Of the deepest depths
Of Hell, crushing
People’s bones for revenge.

Sometimes, I wonder
If he feels the
Love I feel towards
Him. If he feels
The love I have for him.

Sometimes, I want
People to suffer
For the wrong they
Have done, making
People’s lives a misery.

Sometimes, I loved
Sometimes, I hated
Sometime ago, I was
Alive.

Anyone remember this poem and who it is by?

Follow......

So, when I posted the last one a couple of hours ago, I was about to go off and watch a dvd before popping off to bed. In my house, that's not possible....

I first of all got drafted into helping with the washing up by doing the drying. Then my housemate, James, thought it would be a brilliant idea to clean the bathrooms - this was 11pm. What he actually meant by cleaning the bathroom was washing the damp from the walls. We're allowed to paint the walls because the paint is in such bad condition, so James decided now was the best time to clean the walls.

It was a lot of fun, but we've only just finished, cause once we finished the walls, the bath needed a clean cause it was all muddy, then the basin needed cleaning, so I did the toilet too and finally the floor.

So we have a nice clean bathroom!!! YAY!! That is until the rest of my housemates get back from their weekends away tomorrow, and the house becomes a bloody tip again! Oh well!!!

Now that I am UTTERLY exhausted, I'm off to bed, for real this time. Then its off to the library tomorrow to start some work......oh the fun!

Oh, anyway, it’s looking like a beautiful day

What a weekend!!!

I had an amazing time in the Land of Fred, and I am utterly exhausted. It was soo brilliant to see her again, even as Freddie lept on me, almost making me trip over my (far too big) bag. And then it was just a weekend of laughing, talking, taking the piss out of each other, arguing (true Freddie and Helen style), reminising and generally having a very fun time.



Then London which was one hell of an experience. And i hate to admit, that, at one point, I did feel Christmasy as we saw all the pretty window displays. That is past me now, and I'm back to being a Scrooge. Bah Humbug!



So after a weekend of fun and mischief, I'm back in my bed at home, absolutely exhausted, and really looking forward to seeing Freddie, and all my other friends, back in Jersey in 4 weeks time!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't believe I finish my first term at uni in 4 weeks!!!



Anyway, I'm very tired, and I think a little ill, so I'm going to settle down with a DVD, chill out then go to bed!!

Thanks Freddie for a brilliant weekend!!! :D

Nothin' lasts forever, even cold November Rain

Happy beginning of November.

I can't believe October went so fast, and I've only got just over a month left at uni until I go back to Jersey for Xmas. How freaking scary is that.

So, it's November and guess what.....it's raining. Well, it had to happen. Absolutely chucking it down all day long. I was going to go to the library casue I've got a couple of essays due this week, but I saw the weather and decieded to stay in bed. Which is where I am now, still in my pjs at 4pm.

I love being a student.

So I'm listening to November Rain, watching the rain outside my window, in bed with a cup of tea, and I dont think I could be happier. This is what I want to do for the rest of my life! Pity that I will have to go to the library tomorrow to do work, cause otherwise I'm going to be stressing all this week. But for now, I'm going to settle down, and enjoy listening to the rain outside my window, while I'm lovely and cosy in my bed!