no sleep yet again
why is this becoming a regular occurance?!
Monday 26 January 2009
Friday 23 January 2009
The Sleep Paradox
Too tired to sleep
So tired I need sleep
Too many things in my brain preventing me from sleep
Nothing to concentrate on and take my mind off the fact I can't sleep
Welcome to the sleep paradox
(yes, i have been watching far to much Doctor Who!)
So tired I need sleep
Too many things in my brain preventing me from sleep
Nothing to concentrate on and take my mind off the fact I can't sleep
Welcome to the sleep paradox
(yes, i have been watching far to much Doctor Who!)
Wednesday 21 January 2009
Ideas
Its weird how ideas work
Last night I went to Write Club - which is a creative writing group where writers meet to read some of their work, hear others work and generally just have some fun. We did a few exercises last night and out of that, a few ideas sparked in my head. I thought about them all last night, but didnt have time to write them down because I had lots of reading to do. They raced through my brain while i tried to get to sleep - making links, storylines and characters. I've only had time now to sit down and start trying to write these ideas down but I can't seem to cement any of them. Its really frustrating but quite nice too because its been a long time since iv actually felt creative and wanted to write.
One phrase from last night that has sparked a million different storylines - all as interesting as the other. We had to write a poem in 10 seconds (basically its a competition to see who can write a very funny and random phrase in 10 seconds) One guy came up with:
Tickle me,
I'm poor
Which had us laughing for ages, and now it had created so many ideas that i have no idea where to start. But I'm not complaining cause it's brilliant to have my brain thinking about storylines instead of the advantages of the proto-industrial change, for example!
Tuesday 20 January 2009
Sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep!
God, I hate getting up in the morning and at the moment I'm finding it absolutely impossible to get out of bed! This morning I set my alarm to go off at 8.50, so I could give myself 10 mins in bed and therefore get up at 9. Instead I pushed snooze every 10 mins until 10, when I actually got a call from my sister-in-law and hearing another human voice actually got me out of bed. Now that I'm up, I just wanna curl up and go back to sleep. After all I dont have a lecture until 2 so i can sleep until 12....NO! I have work, I can't sleep!!!! God, I hate loving sleep! :(
Monday 12 January 2009
Sunday 4 January 2009
My 5 songs...
So Freddie threw down the gauntlet to post my all time favourite songs in the entire world - gah! I'm sure thats impossible. Actually, it is impossible because the final 5 songs I've chosen cannot even begin to reflect my taste in music. Nethertheless, I have chosen 5:
1. Gimme Shelter by the Rolling Stones
This is one of the first songs I remember hearing as a child, when my dad used to play some of his music on a Sunday afternoon while reading the Sunday newspapers. This song has always been one of my favourites because of the way it builds at the beginning, the rifts, and the way it always makes me want to jump around!
2. Sally's Pigeons by Freddie
I'm not saying this one just because Freddie set down the challenge - I genuinly love this song to bits! Its in my top 10 most played songs on my iPod (and about 4 other tracks are in my top 50!) Freddie gave it to me just before I left for uni, and it just reminds me of the innocence of childhood. Just a brilliant song!
3. Fix You by Coldplay
I love Coldplay so I really couldn't decide which song to choose. Fix You has always been one of my favourites because of the story behind the song (Chris Martin wrote it for his wife Gwyneth Paltrow after her father suddenly died)
4. Society or Guarantee by Eddie Vedder (from the film Into The Wild)
This film has completely changed my world and the soundtrack to it is amazing. I keep banging on about this film to everyone I know because it is a film that everyone should see. The music makes me cry everytime I hear it, especially these two songs, which is why I chose two here, because I couldn't choose between them!
5. Lelilungelo Elakho by Ladysmith Black Mambazo
I have had African music played to me all my life so it was again very difficult to chose just one song that is my all time favourite. I suppose this one beats the rest because a) this song used to put me to sleep, and b) it seems to have popped up at important times in my life.
It was so difficult to chose just 5, and I haven't even included any of my favourite classical music which could take me forever to decide. I'd include Nyman's The Heart Asks for Pleasure First, Flying over Africa - John Barry, O Fortuna - Mozart, Vissi D'arte from Tosca, oh the list could go on......
But I suppose these 5 mean the most to me, and are the songs I could never live without....
1. Gimme Shelter by the Rolling Stones
This is one of the first songs I remember hearing as a child, when my dad used to play some of his music on a Sunday afternoon while reading the Sunday newspapers. This song has always been one of my favourites because of the way it builds at the beginning, the rifts, and the way it always makes me want to jump around!
2. Sally's Pigeons by Freddie
I'm not saying this one just because Freddie set down the challenge - I genuinly love this song to bits! Its in my top 10 most played songs on my iPod (and about 4 other tracks are in my top 50!) Freddie gave it to me just before I left for uni, and it just reminds me of the innocence of childhood. Just a brilliant song!
3. Fix You by Coldplay
I love Coldplay so I really couldn't decide which song to choose. Fix You has always been one of my favourites because of the story behind the song (Chris Martin wrote it for his wife Gwyneth Paltrow after her father suddenly died)
4. Society or Guarantee by Eddie Vedder (from the film Into The Wild)
This film has completely changed my world and the soundtrack to it is amazing. I keep banging on about this film to everyone I know because it is a film that everyone should see. The music makes me cry everytime I hear it, especially these two songs, which is why I chose two here, because I couldn't choose between them!
5. Lelilungelo Elakho by Ladysmith Black Mambazo
I have had African music played to me all my life so it was again very difficult to chose just one song that is my all time favourite. I suppose this one beats the rest because a) this song used to put me to sleep, and b) it seems to have popped up at important times in my life.
It was so difficult to chose just 5, and I haven't even included any of my favourite classical music which could take me forever to decide. I'd include Nyman's The Heart Asks for Pleasure First, Flying over Africa - John Barry, O Fortuna - Mozart, Vissi D'arte from Tosca, oh the list could go on......
But I suppose these 5 mean the most to me, and are the songs I could never live without....
Thursday 1 January 2009
2008 - the year of the pogo stick....
My blog is going to follow the line of quite a few others - 2008 for me was the year of the pogo - lots of ups and downs, and a few pogo stick dances at jl avec Freddie!
The brilliants ups - my friends, finishing school, starting uni, being free, seeing my niece, being in south africa - being HOME, family, Glastonbury, Jersey Live, the best summer of my life, the best Christmas of my life
The heart-breaking lows - clearing, exams, disappointment, redundancy, the credit crunch, death, war, heartbreak, jealousy
But i wouldn't have changed anything this year, because it all happened for a reason. Im a much stronger person than i was 12 months ago. I know who I am now - some bits of myself I'm not entirely happy with, but I can change if i want to. At least I know me.
And now I look forward to 2009. this year i'll no longer be a teenager! I'm going to glastonbury this year, hopefully with a few friends which'll be awesome! and i'll be living and surviving by myself, which is the most fun Ive ever had.
I've realised this Christmas that I dont fit at home anymore. I feel like a jigsaw piece thats forced into a hole that almosts fits, but not quite. This is my home, and i love it, but its not me anymore. I'm different, but this place has stayed the same. I cant wait to get back to uni, but I know i dont fit in my house either. thats not necessarily a bad thing. I love sussex and i know i fit there, i just think i need new housemates. So the new year will bring some change, and maybe i'll find a jigsaw that'll fit better....
I do know one place where I do fit, and I'm gonna follow Freddie's lead on this one - FRIENDS. I spent last nite with Tori, Alex, Claire, and Rachel, and I couldn't imagine spending New Years with anyone else (except including Freddie, Marina, & Methini) We had such a fun time, talking and singing, and messing around, and I'm really glad i didn't go to the NYE party at the waterfront. Because I fit with my friends, they really mean the world to me. I know most of the time I dont really show it (cause I'm usually being quite mean or hurting them!) but I really love all of you, and its actually you lot that keep me sane. (Oh dear God, how can that be true when you're all insane!) I just want to say, thank you for standing by me this year, and helping me when I thought I couldn't go on. I haven't had a great year, but its all my friends who stopped me from going under. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
I'm going to sign off now, before I actually make myself cry. Thank God 2008 is over, and here's to a better 2009!
x
The brilliants ups - my friends, finishing school, starting uni, being free, seeing my niece, being in south africa - being HOME, family, Glastonbury, Jersey Live, the best summer of my life, the best Christmas of my life
The heart-breaking lows - clearing, exams, disappointment, redundancy, the credit crunch, death, war, heartbreak, jealousy
But i wouldn't have changed anything this year, because it all happened for a reason. Im a much stronger person than i was 12 months ago. I know who I am now - some bits of myself I'm not entirely happy with, but I can change if i want to. At least I know me.
And now I look forward to 2009. this year i'll no longer be a teenager! I'm going to glastonbury this year, hopefully with a few friends which'll be awesome! and i'll be living and surviving by myself, which is the most fun Ive ever had.
I've realised this Christmas that I dont fit at home anymore. I feel like a jigsaw piece thats forced into a hole that almosts fits, but not quite. This is my home, and i love it, but its not me anymore. I'm different, but this place has stayed the same. I cant wait to get back to uni, but I know i dont fit in my house either. thats not necessarily a bad thing. I love sussex and i know i fit there, i just think i need new housemates. So the new year will bring some change, and maybe i'll find a jigsaw that'll fit better....
I do know one place where I do fit, and I'm gonna follow Freddie's lead on this one - FRIENDS. I spent last nite with Tori, Alex, Claire, and Rachel, and I couldn't imagine spending New Years with anyone else (except including Freddie, Marina, & Methini) We had such a fun time, talking and singing, and messing around, and I'm really glad i didn't go to the NYE party at the waterfront. Because I fit with my friends, they really mean the world to me. I know most of the time I dont really show it (cause I'm usually being quite mean or hurting them!) but I really love all of you, and its actually you lot that keep me sane. (Oh dear God, how can that be true when you're all insane!) I just want to say, thank you for standing by me this year, and helping me when I thought I couldn't go on. I haven't had a great year, but its all my friends who stopped me from going under. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
I'm going to sign off now, before I actually make myself cry. Thank God 2008 is over, and here's to a better 2009!
x
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